Determination is a Strength

Assalamualaikom w.b.t

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim.

Weeping dust today on my abandoned blog. Biyanne. Here, I came back to share a story. Hope all the silent readers will get benefits from it.

I knew a person, she is on similar age with me, 18.
Since she was in high school, she has ailments and that was really vague. No answers could explain how she got that sickness.
What do you think that she missed a lot since she always skipping the lectures ?
Of course, the lessons.
She don't study language or history specifically as core subjects, instead biology, physics, math and chemistry.
Today, I saw her face was crumpling, sank in silent, believe that she is strong enough to keep everythings herself.
Whilst she have to force herself to cover up those lessons that she couldn't learn during lectures, the schedules were really tight with the presentations and assignments that makes she burn the midnight oil,stay up late until 2.00 a.m.
Sometimes, she only has the chances of staring, reading without understand. Creeping slowly, that she don't want to disturb others that also have to struggle badly to score for the examination.
Her hopes to pass the examination with flying colours, degrades and shatters day by day.
Worry ? Yes, but not about her. She is worrying about her parents. How they could be disappoint in her after all those years.
She said, monologue alone " ya Allah, what's wrong with me, how comes I become so dull, halfwitted, languid, feeble. Please ya Allah, strengthen me, escort me,... "

I know that she often cries alone. Only Allah saw that. The Almighty that No power can be His rival.

Ah. What's wrong with her ?
I don't really know, as the medical check up says there's nothing wrong about her. Only, her platlet percent is higher than other compositions in her blood stream.

Often in the lectures or tutorial classes, she feels that she is trembling, her back shoulder and chest are aching too. Pair of her two pools eyes can only watch the lecturer is teaching infront but cannot digest and cannot understand what she is listening to, almost everyday passed like that.

So she made her mind " I just put all my efforts in it, let Allah do the rest "
"  tawakkal and redha need to be parallel with efforts "
" Allah makes my heart only want to rely on Him  "

Win or Syaheed.

I pray that she will be stronger afterwards.  :)
Qawiy, Lillahi taala.